..Transition..

Surprises were never your part...!!
Nor my kisses,
Nor my soul, nor my heart..
Nor my arms around you tight,
Which used to feel so right.
Then I shut my eyes so tight..
And then I try to remember what it was like.

But I don’t seem to retrieve anything..
Now all of that seems soo bleak..
All of a sudden I feel so weak..
It shudders me down to core..
And then I open my eyes and realise..
You were never meant to be the one by my side..

And I glance aside and smile !!
It was him who was supposed to be..
Because everything feels so right...
His arms around me tight...
His kisses fill my soul
And everything feels so right..
I feel like whole world is mine..!!

All I Wanted Was A Hug

All I wanted was a hug that time..
And those two reassuring lines..
That give it some time..
And everything will be fine...

But all I got was that same old stare...
That get a life and why are you still up soo late..

I wantd to shout it out on your face
That can't you see I am in pain...
But you dint even make a move...

Nothing happened and I walked out of the room...!!

..Muse..

Sometimes I ask myself Why...
But I can never answer the question (why ??)

The question that why do I try so hard
Even when I know you are so far
The question that why cant I reach you
Even when I know where you'd be
The question that why do I seem to care
Even when I know you don't need me
The question that why do I feel the need
Even when I know you dont seem to see

And that is when I close my eyes so tight..
And then I realise no matter how many questions I ask myself
I will never stop trying...!!!

A Moth To The Flame

The feeling over-powered her...
The feeling of being wanted...!!
Being wanted for what she Is...
Was what she had wanted...!!
She didn't realise that this want
Made her a Moth to the Flame
And so she Danced to the flame
To be noticed..!
To be wanted..!

Being wanted was what she got
But not in the way she wanted !!!
Indeed she was being a moth to the flame
The flame consumed her !!!
And she didn't realise this.....
Until it was to late to turn back.....
Until and unless people didn't want her back anymore..!
Not the way she was being wanted !
Nor the way she wanted them to want her !

So in the end she was...
Just another Moth..
Which dances to the Flame
And Dies in the Flame of being Wanted....!!

REBEL PRINCESS

You've seen me after soo long..
And you think that..
now I look like some dressed up doll...


But...
Let me tell you...
That you got it all wrong !!!!


Black Nails / Clothes/
My jeans which are ripped from the knees../
The darkest black Kohl that i wearAren't just some Fashion Statement...!!!

( You must be thinking..HAHA..then what else can it be..?? )

Let me tell you...
That you got it all wrong!!!!


The Dark Kohl I wear is to darken my Vengeance...
Vengeance which is because of scars deep inside..
Vengeance which keeps burning in my heart
And makes me cry silent cries......
The Ripped jeans which you find Tripping...
Let me tell you...
That you just see them torn..
Unlike your feeling of scorn.....
Nor you seem to see the scars
Which are embelished deep on my heart...!!!


My Nails are japanned Black..
Not coz its sum Haute Coture statement
But it is my way to lament..
To savour my past..
To make myself strong..

Strong enough to avenge..!!!

So now you know that I ain't some dressed up doll...
But I am a Rebel Princess...
And I am here to stay,
I am the New Poison
But I still kill the old way.....

You Are Not The One

No..
No..
You are not the one...
When I wake up from my sleep..
You are not the one I wish to see...


When I open my eyes..
I see where the reality lies..
And then I realise.......
Whatever we dreamt together
Was just another big lie...!!!
And just then.. I wish.. you had never said those words...
The words you never meant......
The words which make my sweet memories acidulous..
And I wish... I had opened my eyes before..
And I wouldn't have fallen in this dungeon hole..
Thats why when I wake up from my sleep...
You are not the one I wish to see..!!!
Because when I see you there standing infront of me...
Reality also seems to be a dream...
Sweet dreams which I had thought were unfeigned.......


Back then...
I had wished to live in demesne of my dreamy life...
I had wished never to open my eyes...
And if I ever did open my eyes...
I had wished you to be by my side..


Back then..
I would have never wished to say these words..
Beacuse saying them was like excruciating myself..
But now whenever I see you standin infront of me..
All my sweet memories fade away...
And these words...
These thoughts just come in the way...
And I wish you were never there...


No..
No..
You are not the one
Whom I wish to see standin there infront of me..
When I wake up from my sleep........